Saturday is here...all day I have worked at my job...ordered some chinese delivery...and feasted on chicken and broccoli
As I sat in the staff lounge eating I felt very worn down from the pressures of my money issues
I used my last 25 bucks in savings to buy my lunch. This morning it took me 5 minutes to get 8 buck worth of change from my car to pay for gas.
I have almost paid off my credit card balance. Next paycheck will help tremednously with my bills. I am 4 hundred dollars away from my credit limit so I must be careful when buying groceries this week and next week.
I am back at my apartment now. I have been having stressful nights every night trying to sleep. I keep hearing what I assume are mice in my walls. I have set up mouse traps on my floor and in the kitchen area but nothing has been caught yet.
They are doing more construction on the store under my apartment. They took me off the work sceduele tommorow so I am hoping to get some rest during the day. Each day I feel exhausted when I wake up and get out of bed. I feel as if slept in a sewer pipe over night.
My alarm clock stopped working a month ago and I have been using my cell phone as an alarm in the morning. The only problem is that there is no snooze button on it so many times it will wake me up but then I will fall back asleep after I stop the alarm.
After work today i had to help my uncle and aunt move some furniture and they cooked me a nice dinner as a thank you. It was glorious to have a home cooked meal...the gumbo they made was great. I've always had a belief on soups. You can sit down at the table and have the most disgusting dinner ever...but if the soup is good then all is taken care of. I feel a good bowl of soup warms your body and soul at the same time.
Today I finally saw my friend Don-he came into the gym to workout with a friend Ive never met before. It pisses me off because we have worked out many times...but for the past month we have stopped. He didnt even introuduce me to his workout buddy. I feel thats a douchbag maneuver and it would never enter my mind to treat someone like that..and a good friend none the less.
My coworker was wearing a black vest today...i asked him if it were warm and he said yes...I feel a vest really makes u look sharp. I dont care how ugly or fat or gross you are...if you have a clean vest on then you look like you are going on the red carpet. You could be buck naked with a barrell around your body but if you have a vest over the barrell then thats good.
As of right now my eyes are tired
My throat is dry
My lips are coarse
My body feels as if its reached its breaking point
My fingers ache as I type right now
My mind wanders as I type this and I feel as if I am being dragged down a corridor into a space filled with darkenss
I pray for the rain
I pray for the sun
I yearn for change now, tommorow, and for the future