The depressed T and LH levels don't indicate hypogonadism IMO. That would see you with high LH but unresponsive nuts. I'd recommend getting another full androgen profile done, including estrogens. The ratio of E1:E2:E3 will show the doc how well you are metabolizing and clearing estrogens. It's possible that the cause of your shutdown is simply excessive E. (Is your diet lacking vegetables?) Looking at prolactin might be helpful too, since your sex drive is depressed.
I have only limited knowledge of endo matters, but checking further up the chain on things like progesterone and other stuff might be helpful if you've got a good doc to interpret the results. BTW, your cortisol level is supposed to be highest after waking, then lower in the evening. Thats why they were surprised by your results. I'd imagine you rarely feel good or refreshed in the morning, and possibly have a hard time getting out of bed. Even though you're tired a lot of the time, do you find yourself wide awake late at night when its time for bed? You might want to do some research on adrenal fatigue and adrenal exhaustion, and see if there's a match with the symptoms.
If you've noticed testicular atrophy, or if there's reason to believe that your nuts are the limiting factor in your recovery, HCG is a useful drug.
FFS don't tell your doc that you used steroids! Just tell him the truth - that you bought some weightlifting supplements from GNC (or whatever) and they screwed you up (and don't make any more references to your body composition, talk more about sex dysfunction, exhaustion, and wanting a better quality of life). If he says he won't help a steroid abuser, remind him that everything you used was legally purchased over the counter, and ask him how he can justify turning away a kid (sorry man) who never broke any laws, just wanted to lift some weights, wanted to get fit, etc, but had bad luck with nutritional supplements? I'd also be tempted to add, "What kind of fucking doctor are you anyway?" Refusing to treat you on the basis that you're a steroid abuser is really fucked up (and implies that he would treat you otherwise, but now he won't because he personally disapproves of your actions)! I'd be thinking about filing a complaint. Definitely seek out a new doctor.
I'd also go see a doc at an HRT clinic. They'll be more in tune with your situation and less judgemental than a GP or endo, and they'll be more willing to prescribe things like HCG and clomid than a GP or endo. Non HRT docs aren't going to stick their neck out to help you achieve a better quality of life. You're not bleeding to death, so as far as they're concerned there's no reason to see you. You're going to have to dig around for a doc who will take your situation seriously.
You are improving tho, so I guess there's something to be said for being patient. Even if you don't want to start popping pills or taking shots, getting some more comprehensive blood tests/saliva tests done and getting a second and third opinion won't do any harm.
