Crazy thread. Don't do it Deicide. A lot can change in a year.
Good luck righting your mind. No one is perfect or always happy, but hopefully you can get the suicidal thoughts to subside.
You've moved a lot and experienced different cultures. What else "new" can you do next?
Even though you're burnt after working for two years, you'll still need to do something most days to keep your brain stimulated.
Run through a typical day for you now ...