There are a few things that made me make this decision.
First, I went on a few introspective psychedelic trips about a month ago and they really tore my ego apart. I was in pieces for weeks afterwards. Anyone who has every been on a hardcore psychedelic trip can probably relate. It's like your personality gets destroyed.
In the past week i've kind of been grounding myself again from it. And I just can't really fit this bodybuilding shit into my new vision of life. It just seems so gay, narcisistic and superficial. Most of the dudes in it are fucking baffoons, chasing materialistic dreams. You sacrifice your health and your spiritual integrity for muscles basically.
Also i've been going to the Buddhist temple and learning about the path of Buddha. It's making me see a whole new horizon. I knew all about Buddhism and different spiritual paths for a long long time. But now i'm seeing it with new eyes.
Being totally serious here. Most f you all probably can't relate to this at all i'm sure, but I don't give a fuck.