No offense but you're a chubby schmoe. Bb'ing isn't a sport, but its a 24/7 discipline and there's nothing easy about it. Just because some pros are half retarded and take boatloads of drugs under the guidance of bigger, more drugged out dunces (or training "gurus") does not make it one bit easier.
You've trained to a degree that is hard for you, but you're nothing special. Lets see you take the drugs, injecting and working out with a bolus of oil in all your large muscles. Lets see you diet for real, not just scaling back the calories and cutting junk food, I mean a grueling bodybuilding diet. You're either nauseous or fighting hunger pains when you're really trying to augment your physique through food. The word diet is underappreciated like a $5 whore.
You can never be a bodybuilder. You have a beta male mentality, your training is pitiful and delusional and you could never cope with the drug regimen, diet or limited lifestyle choices that bodybuilding entails.
Hope this helps.