How we live our lives is almost always about the choices we make. It can be the choice to stay up all night to get ourself back on schedule, the choice to change our feelings about women based on whether we are looking to get laid or have been or to question our faith (which most folks get from childhood religious experiences and associations). Sometimes we make good choices and sometimes not....life is trial an error.
Sometime, someday you might think about examining why you feel so differently about women before and after sex. Is your libido directing you or are you in direction of it. What about romance? Perhaps you'll think this is crazy, but men are often more romantic than women. I've heard it said that men take breakups a lot harder than most women do. Women just tend to talk about them more.
You must be in Europe. My son lives in Germany. It is nine hours later where he lives than it is here on the west coast of the U.S.
Well I can't help about my natural biological needs. The problem is not physical, but it's political. You said you are retirred? Well listen, women today are so differend than women 10-20 years ago, trust me, they just are. It's cold blooded war between feminism and sovinism out there, friend.
And you're not crazy at all, pretty women know subconsciously that they can get any man they want most of the time because it's the way it is. So after a breake up, she knows that if she wanted she could have lines of men waiting for their turn. Not the case with men, because men need to grease a whole lot more. A man would never want to let go a woman no matter how hard the sittuation is, but woman will just stick around and then go. Women are more cold and actually less emotional than men. And now days when women want to do the same things as men is confusing the new genertion of kids even more. It's natural.
I love romance, but it's something you can't search. I think everyone who tries to find love is fooling themselves because you have to find yourself first and love yourself first before you can love anyone, and even then, you may never meet the perfect guy or girl but you should be happy regardless because self respect is the most imortant thing. So if in addition you will fall inlove, that's great, if not, should be happy about it anyway. And many girls now days think romantic men are boring even, with their nonsense smooth talk and crap, it's true. Not all women but more and more women don't whanna hear any pet talk because then you're a player... but if you're not romantic then you're a meathead caveman

, you know, that's how it goes.
So getting laid is not the main objective at all (even though I don't mind lol). For me more important is to connect with the girl so she can understand me where I'm coming from and if she lets me help to understand where she's coming from that would be great. But usually it goes to shit talking because women don't like men who have much stronger personality than they have.