So tomorrow I'm going back into my old stomping grounds, where I did all my growing up, and where I met, and LEFT the love of my life in pursuit of my own ambitions and growth as a person. Going back to spend time with the folks, close family, best buds I had. But I know, the urge to want to stop by and visit her, or call her, set something up will be strong, hell, it's why I'm posting it on here!
Fellas, this is no Americano whore, this woman was a giver, caring, sweet, funny and dorky, open to new things, oh and DAMN SEXY. She never realized how great looking she was, which made her very humble.
In pursuit of my own goals in life, I left her, she tried so hard to keep me, keep contact, not lose me "for good", but I was cold, "GETBIG COLD".
3 months after our separation, I tried to make contact, we did, I was hard on her still, I felt being a part of her life was enough, I hurt her for being a dick, self centered.
In turn, a month afterwards, I tried to be myself, not this cold guy I was being (it was my way of pushing her away). In that time, she through all that shit in my face and CUT ME OFF!! Games huh, in any case, I looked dumb in the end.
NOW, a year later I'm going back, Getbig, do I visit this wonderful lady, I'm smarter, much greater looking, MUCH, (thanks to hormones), and I'm STILL IN LOVE WITH HER. No girl I've met since her even comes close. What you guys think I should do?