I can relate to this somewhat.
I started using AAS way to young and way too inexperienced.
I tried all the crazy stuff, slin, GH, AAS, before even having any major experience in a weight room.
It did me no good, I was just left with less money and some side effects once all was said and done.
I'm not saying I came off and learned everything perfectly....that would have been the right thing to
do. I just went on lower doses of AAS only, and concentrated on really learning how to lift...basic shit,
nothing special, just make sure you can lift some damn weights appropriately and eat some damn food.
I am still nothing special, but I look like I lift weights and I don't think anyone would give me shit
if I posted a pic and said I was going to hit some GH. Well, I'm sure people would, because this is getbig,
but my point is I have some muscle on me, a foundation.
So I know this mindset....go big, do all the big boy stuff and blow past all these guys that don't know
the secrets. Truth is, you won't blow past anyone without knowing the basics first.
I know you aren't going to not use AAS, so let me help you with some steroids to help you grow without
fucking you up.
Test and Deca. Just take them in some sane doses and concentrate on lifting and eating. Stay away from
the tren and all the orals. If you can't grow on these two, the others won't matter anyway.
When I say sane I mean stay around 5-600mg total gear per week.
This way you won't be all fucked up when you decide to stop in a while after burning out.