care to elaborate? is it public knowledge?or do you wish to not talk about it?
I had been for the better part of 6yrs, hard, long use. Then for a little more than a year I put the bodybuilding idea out of my head, still trained but was focused more on work and things of a personal nature...during that time I was running 250mg of Test every 7-10 days. As this time past, I got the itch again and began full blown use again for the first time in well over a year. I was on for 5 maybe 6 wks:
Testoviron Depot: 250mg/ed
Trenbolone-Acetate: 100mg/ed
Nandrolone-Decanoate: 200mg/wk
Dianabol: 100mg/ed
At this point my world came crashing down and I was forced to discontinue all use. For the first 8wks or so I was fine, but I started declining steadily after that. I progressively found myself much tireder than normal, it would get to the point where I was like a 90yr old man who needed sleep constantly. Of course, any muscle I had slowly kept drifting away, body-fat was going up. All-in-all I felt like crap for about a yr, and then things got really bad.
I'm sure part of it was due to the stress I was under, which was enormous and for several different reasons, but I started getting sick. I'd get the flu and it would take 2-3wks to get through it, I'd be fine for a wk or two and it would happen again. This repeated a few times, I went to the doctor and they kept giving me antibiotics but it was like my body kept rejecting everything...several of the things they gave me caused my blood pressure to drop horribly which basically made me feel like I was dying.
Anyway, finally I went to a hormone specialist, I knew the cause of my problem, but I guess I had been hoping in-time my body would simply regulate itself, but that obviously wasn't going to happen. Anyway, my test levels were 63, not too shocking, yes ridiculously low but I expected that. What was surprising was apparently my entire hormonal system was for the most part shut down...every test they ran, and it seemed like they ran a hundred I wasn't making anything or hardly at all depending on the hormone....good, bad or in-between I wasn't making it.
I asked the doctor if this was due to the years of long term heavy steroid use, I expected him to say yes, but he didn't. He said it probably didn't help, but the biggest factor was that large cycle that I had to stop abruptly coupled with the tremendous stress of life I was then under more or less caused my body to go into a state of stagnant shock. He said those two stresses combined were like running as fast as I could into a brick wall. Now I don't know how accurate his description was in-terms to what was specifically going on, but that's how he worded it.
Anyway, they put me on an HRT program and shortly after I started feeling like myself again...all the medicine in the world the other doctors were giving me didn't do a thing, some of it actually made things worse, but what do you know, hormones worked.
Funny thing about it, all my years of hard, long use I never had a problem. I'm probably one of the few people who actually kept an eye on my health getting a few physicals per yr and actually informing the doctor of what I was doing. It's funny what stress can do to you when you couple it with abrupt hormonal shutdown.