I have no desire to be alive if my body is completely weakened.
Any time I have been laid up with an injury, or recovering from a crazy illness, I wonder if that is what it is like
all the time for people that are extremely old.
I am bitter enough as it is, I can imagine myself being extremely frustrated if I had to move slowly or felt weak
at all times.
I hope my mind calms and becomes more accepting of things as I age, because I know right now I could not handle
being in a weakened state.
My grandfather died not too long ago at age 77. He got liver cancer and it took him down in a matter of weeks. He
was completely healthy before that, moved around like a healthy guy half his age. My other grandfather died in his
sleep of a heart attack, he was a working cardiologist and avid tennis player and runner. Both of them were living
great up until their deaths.... that is how I want it to be for myself. I fear being weak and unable to defend myself or
do physical activities that I enjoy. I would prefer being healthy up to the end, and then crapping out as a result of
something that hits hard and quick.
Too many people seem to suffer and have prolonged deaths that last for a decade or so.... that is not something I could
not handle. My friends' parents that have gone through that kind of end all talked about suicide in their last years. I can't
imagine the feelings of depression and hopelessness that they may have been feeling during those times.
For me, quality of life is far more important than quantity.
Healthy, active 75 year old dropping dead one night > Weak and frail 95 year old slowly dying over the course of years.