I was raised into religious faith and study and gave myself to it with a whole heart for many, many years.
Not once did I have a prayer "answered" and not once did I experience awakening or communion with a holy spirit.
Then, in my late 20s, I started to really consider, with strength of mind and intellect, all that I had been taught to believe. With each passing year the fog that is brainwashing lifted and the utter nonsense of all religious faith struck me hard.
Now, many years after being UNborn, I feel total contempt for religion and what it's done to humankind and its development.
But if I am wrong, and one day I meet this maker, I will admit my mistake ... and then spit in his/her/its face.
An all-powerful god that allows such misery to encompass a creation it claims to love is no god worth worshipping or following. It is a sadistic and hateful god and deserves to be ostracized by all.
But that's all fantasy thinking, anyway.
There is no god.