how many times did you "try" to do it before just saying fuck it and taking the plunge into that virgin skin? Were you shaking with adrenaline afterwards?
no i just kept looking at the air buble in the siringe
wondering is this really 1ml?
is the buble part of the ml?
is the 1ml supposed to be at the start or bottom of that black rubber thing in the siringe?
the actual pressing was not a special thing
i wondered how deep, and walked over to the computer to look on youtube
ok deep or too deep, then wondering if i put it in the bloodstream directly i will die
then pressed it in
felt disgusted with myself
mix of emotions
some regret
