So how do you see yourself currently?
in a nutshell as not "good enough"
but this shit stems from childhood and my macho uncles calling me a "weak fag" and that i'm not good enough and that kinda shit
maybe it a symptom of narcissism, as i sure as hell am a narcissist
and on a side note i see these ugly, fat toady pollocks walking around all proud and arrogant and i think to myself... "how the fuck do these goddamn toads have this confidence? they look like absolute horseshit"
LOL!
but i know you have something similar coz you often tell me about seeing these hot females with fat toady guys