arce, you seem somewhat lonely and regretful (about life in general).
i think most people here don't get this, dont have anywhere near the same perspective on life that you do, and thus think you must be simple. that's my theory anyway. if i'm wrong, i apologize. i think you are a cool guy, and this sucks. i'm sure i'll find my way down to LA sooner or later, and we'll hang out... maybe hit the gym.