Seems you've spent alot of time in your life being a victim.
I experienced some victimisation at different stages in my life. I don't see any events in my life as shameful, I can talk openly about most of the things that has ever happened to me. I mean if you have never been a victim of anyone, then you should be grateful for your good fortune. It has nothing to do with you or who you are, you may have just lived a very sheltered life and towed the line. This is what a lot of people do, this is why they never grow comfortable within themselves, they learnt to avoid confrontation, but never are true to themselves. I see no shame in being a victim at times, it is merely a part of my story. Personally, I would never trust anybody who hasn't been the target of some victimisation, I would see them as non-genuine, or definitely lacking in character, afarid to be themselves The only way to do such a thing is to avoid conflict, and only cowards live a life of avoiding conflict.
Anyway, I soon learned, I definitely turned it around and have since created a few victims of would be victimisers. It has cost me a few convictions, but well worth it. I learned to not take shit from anyone, that's why you retards don't affect me, you try and try to get under my skin and all to no avail. I have dealt with fuckwits my whole life. The majority of Getbiggers wouldn't dare say shit to my face, and the few that did would soon find themselves in a serious confrontation. Any victimisation I experienced has always been by groups, usually of three or more. I have rarely had the luxury of a one on one fight.