Hope this is a serious post because I will answer it like it is. I have and am suffering now. I know what you mean about knowing it is not the normal blues but much worse. You just know inside it is not normal. I did go to a shrink on was put on medication and looking back I am not sure how much it helped. It may or may not have. All I know is that it was not easy by any means. I found that there were certain people who could just make me feel better and "forget" about it all while I was with them. Seek these people out and be around them whenever possible. I wish I had a concrete answer to give you about how to get through it but there is none other than if you feel it is going too far into the darkness and you are going to hurt yourself, go to a hospital tell them what you are thinking and let them help you. Other than that, try to find anything positive that does not hurt others that you can do to boost your mood. There are supplements and drugs that help but they are not a cure. The only cure is unfortunately time because it feels like it will never end. It does though. Good luck to us both, I know I need it.
well when humans realize they are useless and nobody cares about them, when they figure they re lacking stuff they ll never be able to get, they get "depressed". It s when you realize we re just animals. You dont need an horrible life to be depressed, just like you dont need to be rich to be happy. Being depressed is genetical, and failing or suffering too much for too long makes you slowly sink into despair. So you stick to your hobbies, etc you do the things that make you feel good, hoping to reach the next top of the wave, then a failure, and you down again, and again, like a rollercoaster. How to stay aways at the top?
I d say find things to do you really love, you re passionate about, create, get in the flow of the process, it's called the sublimation process; it acts as a drug, an anti depressant; just like any other activity. It helps numbing your senses , you know the whole thing is vain and cruel, but at least you re in your little bubble doing your thing, it encourages dopamine, serotonin production in your brain and you dont care aymore. You then build projects, hopes, you visualize stuff you want to reach, and voila, you re not depressed anymore, and you enjoy going to work and facing people daily who want to kill you , with more ease. They re just a mean to an end, the end being you doing the stuff you like. Problem is when you have nothing you like , feel good doing, and only have a shit job and maybe a shit lonely life with no woman or kids or family. Hobbies and personal proejcts, goals, are important. You cant feel happy just emptying your balls, drinking, eating, lifting weights, working, you need something more, you need the whole package. Also not sure if it s of any help but, look at people around you ; most are as depressed as you. And we all have the same strategies to cope with that inner deep sadness. I think that creating stuff whatever what you create is very important. At the end of the day tho, we re still all animals fighting each others randomly and indefinitely to death while pretending otherwise. That's the bottom , dead end of deep thinking, you cant go further. It s also a normal process to realize the limitations of what human life has to offer. Some are more limited than others, its unfair. As you age you have less and less oportunities and less and less stamina. Most people stick to doing what thy always liked to do, their little daily routine.
