Some great thoughts and perspective in here so far. I made it further than I should have. I am doing everything in my power to move further along. Along the way I have produced a great son and his great children, two estranged daughters, escaped a bad marriage, out lived second wife of 44 years, seen a lot of the world, been homeless, been rich, had a 16 year old nympho GF at age 27, a 39 year old nympho GF at age 70, been near death flat line with paddles in ER and 3 transfusions bringing me back to life, 60 years of bodybuilding, won a couple of nice titles and a slew of seconds at National level shows, ripped my pec off the humerous bone at 71, stopped bodybuilding at 72, started mountain hiking 6 mi. per day, published, raced cars, ski patrol for years, picked up a Masters in Nutrition, married now to an 18 years younger wife, I need the blue pill, into RE now.....yeah, life has been interesting alright.
And I have no advise.