this sucks man as you know shit happens and for a reason, probably shouldve not had any meat when really sick, im not trolling just saying because im right there with you on losing pets, i lost my final duck a month ago, it killed me i cried and literally wanted to die with the duck once i found all that remained was its spine and feathers, i did all i could for that duck, atleast yuou have all the beautiful friendship memories with your dog be greatful bro all u can do you did your best