i need to keep a part time job to finish school within the year. i'm 31 so that needs to happen. it's pretty much the best it's gonna get as far as part-time goes.
i hate growing up (in some ways). friends are grown up too and i miss the party scene. i feed off that. going out. making a night of it. shit changes and i hate it. i don't mind being an 'adult.' even being a dad and in a committed relationship. but this stuck at home or work bullshit is lame. straight up lame. gay and stupid.
i am a goddamn teenager on the inside and i'm fucking okay with that dammit.
Hope that some of these feelings never go away. I'm 70 years old and I embrace feeling like a kid every once in awhile. I firmly believe this keeps one young. In fact, it is one of the reasons I post one Getbig; I like the interaction with younger folks. Compared to me, you're a baby. Sure, acting like an adult can be a pain at times. Find some balance. Occasionally let your hair down. If your partner doesn't understand your need to cut loose every so often, try to help her to see the light.
My wife and I have been married for over 50 years. She's a lot more staid then me. For example, she never drinks. She never liked to go out dancing and I love to dance...even won a dance contest once and my wife wasn't my dance partner. We are opposites in many ways. This is something that can keep a relationship alive. If you have a handle on your responsibilities, and it appears that you do, you're allowed to get a little crazy every once in awhile. Take my word for it, I have a lot of life experience.
As and afterthought, let me just say I've been incredibly lucky when it comes to my and my wife's relationship. She's very tolerant. It might have been her willingness to put up with my crazy self that cemented our marriage.