have degenerated discs in my c spine, compressed discs in my tspine and bulging discs in my lumbar so was using ultram for 2-3yrs... 8 per day at the start, then tapered down to 3 per day.... until they scheduled it and i had to go to the dr to get the script renewed instead of just refilling it every 2 months online.
dr would only write a script for 3 weeks worth, then scheduling a new apt was a pain in the ass and i'd be out for a few days to a week or two.
then got a call from a customer saying his (crackhead) gf had some diluadid (she didn't even know what they were.. she stole them... about 1000 of them from a cancer patient) and asked if i knew of anybody who'd want them.. at first i said 'nah, i have no idea'... then i thought.. hey wait, sure i'll try some. so i got about 30 or so 2mg pills.. which when taken orally didn't do shit. and i'm not into sniffing boatloads of powder, so i started crushing them up, mixxing with water filtering and shooting it IV... eventually i was bangin 20-30mg/day and paying peanuts for them... until the supply ran out.
the guys gf says she has some morphine tabs... but from my research, i know they're impossible to melt down/dissolve and bang iv, but she says "all her herion friends beg for them when they can't get herion"... this was around the time Phillip Seymore Hofman OD'd on H, so i told her "well, go find your herion friends and get me some heroin instead"... her being a crackhead, took advantage of my ignorance of pricing.. i was expecting to pay 100/g but quickly went up to 150-200/g... and at first 80mg would make me nod a little, but the 'rush' was nothing like what you see in movies and nothing compared to the diluadid. but then i found a better hookup and after a while i was doing 500-700mg per shot IV.
had i been able to maintain a steady supply of 3 ultram/day without interruption, i'd never have considered using anything else. but the piece of shit doctor just wanted to bill the fuck outta my insurance... writing scripts for $90 "topical ibuprofen cream" and $900 MRI's on my neck/back when i'd JUST HAD 5 fuckin MRI's on my spine less than a year earlier.
luckily i found a dr who accepted insurance that perscribed suboxone... most doc's who perscribe suboxone ONLY accept cash up front.. usually $800+ the price of the suboxone.
only experienced what's called "precipitated withdrawals" once... that's when you take suboxone too soon after using an opiate, and the suboxone "knocks off" all other opiates off the receptors and you get what's usually 3 days of withdrawal condensed into 1 hour.. i was back at the dealer as quick as i could and banged 1.5g straight away just to kill the withdrawal... and waited 24hrs before starting back on the suboxone again.
to come off black, you gotta get a decent supply of xanax, catapres, and suboxone/subutex... it's much easier to do 1 last shot of black at like 7pm, then take your xanax with a couple shots of vodka and catapress at night.. wake up, take another xanax and wait as long as you can past noon before you take your suboxone. first 24hrs are bad... but if you make it 3 days, you're set.. as far as physical withdrawal.. then you gotta deal with PAWS (post acute withdrawal syndrom)... where everything in your life just sucks and you're bored. i didn't know what do do with myself. when i had nothing to do, in the past i'd do a shot and eat (opiates made me hungry all the time) and feel content... without the opiates, it was impossible to feel content.. hence the xanax to keep from climbing the walls and whatnot... for me, it was easier to think of the money i'd spent and how i could be driving an 02 911 Turbo right now.
