What did that year do to your physique? Were you still juicing as well? And how was training? This shit is fascinating to me
still ran minimal doses.. sporadic training... maybe 500mg-1g/wk. maintained about 225-230.. often went months with maybe 1 workout. still had abs, delts and whatnot. everytime i wound up inthe hospital the nurses/dr's would mention something like "how the fuck do you look like this and use heroin?" "you must workout every day"... i'd chuckle. usually would up in the er because of an infection. the cellulitis in my lower legs that turned into sepsis a year ago never really healed until recently.
i kicked back in july using suboxone... couple female clients actually went looking for me and had vague idea of where i lived (nobody had heard from me for about 5 days and when i'd answer the phone they could tell something was really wrong)... showed up in my bedroom and found me extrememely dehydrated and took me to the ER. was clean for a while.. then relapsed. during relapse i resumed training and got back to 235ish and lean fairly quickly.. using about 1g test/wk and 100mg anavar 100mg dbol on training days (about 3 days a week).
then kicked again recently... a week ago thursday actually... buddy of mine gave me a stimulant to "distract me" from the opiate withdrawal and i likely suffered a minor heart attack friday night/sat morning. (according to my 3rd yr med student gf whom i'd reconciled with a couple months ago... she was with me that saturday and was timing chest pains radiating to arm... shortness of breath, ect... but i refused to go to the ER)... traininging on opiates is actaully fine. it's just business that really got in the way of my training... plus i just lost motivation.
now, training without opiates is taking some getting used to. opiates are warm and comforting. take that away and it feels like there's something "missing" and that feeling is what sucks, once you get past the physical withdrawal.
plus, for the past couple weeks i've been dealing with kidney stones... last 2 mornings waking up writhing in pain with gf telling me to go to the ER... but i know when i go they're not gonna be able to get an IV started (the reason i quit this time is because i have no more usable veins). before kicking the first time, i was inthe ER with 2 dr's 2 nurses and a phelmbotomist using 2 ultrasound machines trying to find a vein to draw blood or start an iv... took them 5 hours. only dr's are allowed to use neck veins for iv/blooddraw and they couldn't find any that were useable. (all collapsed or scarred... even neck and armpits).
so... this time, i'll be going back on 100%. probably a couple months of 5g test plus some chinese gh at 5-10iu... depending on what brand. hell, after thinking nothing of spending $120/day on black tar, i still have a hard time pulling the trigger on a $200 gh kit. lol
business is picking up after a dip and i have a cartel investor wanting to put some money in.
