Sorry to hear about the loss 
I have one and I would def be in tears when he's gone..
bella the girl cat was young 11 yrs old when she died last yr,,we got her together but it was my wifes 1st 'kid'they had a great bond,a shelter rescue she was 'bitchy'typical girl..anyway she got sick bad had tumor in neck and couldn't eat ,i would try anything in the end to get her to eat,food on spoon ,water with a dropper ,it was brutak ending,my wife was out with friends and she knew the cat was going to pass but hoped not that night ,she did in front of me i watched her take last breaths and i never had any real bond with her at all but i cried'no homo' and layed with her ,my one daughter said i didn't think big boys cried daddy..my wife got home and saw her laying there and lost it,,she still cries at times over her.the 2 boys davinci and cannoli are great cats.my cat i had 15 yrs rocky died in front of me and wife 'heart attack' too i was a real mess for a week after that,devestated.