I'm middle aged now been through the basic growing stages that most of us go through. Now have a firm sense of who I am and what I'm about. Not scared of death, pointless; but fear having no real meaning to life. And largely because that is one of those imponderables whenever I start to over think that kind of stuff I know that I just am not busy enough with my own stuff in life. Which means I take the opportunity to go outside of my comfort zone, outside of me and my life, and try to help out others as much as I can. Doesn't necessarily give me meaning to life but keeps me productively occupied and simply helping others. All I know thus far in my journey is that life is short, it's a one time ride - and it is completely up to you to make the most of it. There arfe some religious peeps who are great people - if being religious helps them and others and doesn't hurt anyone then cool. But the moment that line is crossed and it interferes or hurts others intentionally or unintentionally - then I be a god (with actual power to do something unlike all the bullshit sky fairies) and you shall incur my wrath.