You should do both. Try to kill yourself whilst prepping for a show. Just don't post about it on here.
I'm more likely to kill myself slipping in the gym shower and then be unable to get up.
As age 60 looms on the near horizon, I've become the typical older gym douche .
1. I ride the ol' bike watching the news while mumbling how the country is going to hell.
2. I start up unwanted conversations with other guys in the locker room.
I stand there naked with my foot propped up on the bench while my nut sac sags low in full view.
3. Every other sentence starts with ;"...back in my day ".
4. ANY sexy , fit woman under 40, says to her gym friends ; " That old creepy guy is staring at my butt again."