If you don't get the point, you don't get it. It's ok. Go through your own post-history, I won't do it for you.
Oh, I get the point. I get it clearly. This is not my first rodeo, cowboy.
It is you that can't seem to comprehend which I would think is a very simple concept.
I indeed feel no shame in addressing personal feelings on a message board. Nor do I see any need to.
Due to my personality I am for the most part unable to seek help or express personal concerns to others.
Getbig for this purpose allowed me to vent, in addition to getting alternative insight from people outside of my social circle.
Of course, you feel no shame. Any sense of shame has been virtually eliminated from our society following the culture revolution from the late sixties/early seventies and began to manifest itself by the 1990s.
I can say with virtual 100% certainty, that anyone from your generation and from Western Europe has never had a father that told them to, "Act like a man."
Life is not easy, it'sunfair, and often cruel and nasty. Sometimes you have to just suck it up. Just the fact you are here tells me that you live better than the majority of the world. One of the top five killers in the world is diarrhea. All from the lack of clean drinking water. And to think not long ago someone about your age told me he hates water. Has to drink diet coke or some other flavored drink.
There use to be a time when a man practice a kind of discreet modesty. He didn't air his personal woes for all the world to see. It was kept in house, in family. He realized that everybody has their cross to bear in life and he wasn't going to burden others and impose on them to solve his own problems. He realized that life is what it is and that many have it far worse than he and he wasn't going to feel sorry for himself.
Now I have to hear about how men wished they had a vagina, how they want to "experience" sucking a dick, how they were molested at five because when their dad picked them up he had his hand on his butt... every little idiosyncrasy, emotional crisis, perversion now has to be put on full public display for the world to see.
I miss the closet. Some things are better left being kept in the closet.
Instead of feeling sorry for yourself be grateful for what you have. More than what most of the people in the world have.
Suck it up and act like a man.
As for not seeing a meaning in life, I merely posed the question what made people tick and what drove them.
This within the context of my situation at the time. Had you paid attention, you may have caught on to that.
No issue with that. I still wonder how people keep from blowing their brains out. I sit in traffic ready to explode and look at others sitting there so passive and serene. How do they do it? Do they just flip a switch and go into zombie mode. I wonder how a man restrains himself from strangling to death a guy half his age that still lives with his parents that just told him, "Hey, I told you, when you close up you have to put plastic over the printer. I have to keep telling you that. You have to learn how to listen."
And again, watch your tone with me. Be glad that we're separated by an ocean. One day you might forget and make a snarky, sarcastic comment like that to the wrong person in real life and that sassy smirk will quickly turn to tears as you are being strangled to death.
I pay close attention. Very close attention.
With all your supposed experience (15 years?), surely you'll manage to figure out what my main concern was.
If not, tough luck buddy. I'm sure others did.
I'm not your buddy.