question 1? yea, a lil.. been told that quite a bit.
question 2? I dunno.... I'm not really afraid to die.
question 3? yea, I do... which is why I do the things I to and take the risks I do to provide from them.... in a twisted way.
you have to understand, I'm a felon. a well known felon. my options are limited. I AM however GOOD at what I do. my UGL is top notch. I'm a top personal trainer with a superion knowledge of training. and I mean training EVERYBODY, I adapt. I train old ladies, men, kids, rehab guys,, ect... crossfit, ect... and I have other things in the works.
there's no way I could make the money I make working a "normal" job for a felon. you know?
thats because you live a life not worth living, people who enjoy life don't want to die anytime soon, they do fear not being around.
Your life is one boring trip to the ER room and rehab after another.
You drink because your family and children have nothing to do with you, it numbs the pain I suppose, the constant input of prescription meds must help as well.
Living the dream.
By the way, in case Im not posting at Christmas, RIP buddy.