You don't consider that a traumatic incident. The guy died, he was trying to save him. You don't think that stays with you the rest of your life?
This is a very traumatic event. I had my big fraternity brother die at age 19 (from an enlarged hear which he did not know), and I still think about it now and then, 25+ years later.
My brother is dead and I will never see him again. Never. I am over that. Why? Because my faith is also dead.
So because your faith is dead, means everyone elses should be. No, you can always restore. Compassion for his friends, his family, his loved ones. Your brother had good in him, and you should choose to remember that. Pain killer drugs are the worst if you get addicted. We are dealing with that in our family now, and we can choose to give up, or try to help. And sometimes it is almost impossible.
He was selfish-he knew how dangerous the drugs were.
So the people who break their bones in basketball, football, hockey should not play at all because they know there is a chance they may get hurt. A car driver should not drive because it is dangerous to go that fast? A surfer should not surf because there is a chance a shark may attack?
Bottom line, so of your don't get it. A kind, well liked person of our industry has passed away. Regardless, we are hurt, sad, shocked. Some people are doing good things in his name, aka a foundation for kids. Some people are grieving my remember the good things in life with him. That is what we choose to remember.