Far as the dui's, you ever hear me "bragging" about them? No, you don't. I.don't even like alcohol. I drank it to self-medicate. If and when I had access to Brazos, I never drank. I never drank in high school, ever. I had the same 6-pack of Sam Adams in my fridge in Korea Town for nearly a year and the same 750ml bottle of Absolute vodka on top of the fridge for nearly the same time that we (my Ex & I) got because some of her friends came over to watch a couple movies (oh, and an unopened bottle of silver jose quervo we won at a fundraising gala for an asthma foundation). I didn't drink that first beer till I was about 2 weeks into kicking Nubain the first time and was using 1,4 BD and GBL for anxiety during the day and insomnia at night,& when those sources were harder to come by, I remembered people saying GBL was like alcohol, so I started drinking a beer at night to sleep... And despite not liking the taste, it produced the desired effect,& I could actually get through the day... Then fast forward to the 2nd time trying to kick Nubain (actually Torbugesic, but most have no clue what that was), using my method of using Temgesic (same chemical as Suboxone, except a much much lower dose) for 15days, followed by 40-45 days of an Ultram taper with a 10mg valium at night along with 50mg IV benedryl, at about day 30 of the Ultram taper, instill couldn't sleep and had insane anxiety during the day so I remembered the beer..& started drinking 2 beers at night and 1 at lunch and once again, could function during the day. So it wasn't till I was 21/22 that I even started drinking, much less drinkingbeveey day, being completely ignorant of the possibility of alcohol addiction or alcohol withdrawal, because like i said, I never drank or partied in h.s. and had no clue what a "hangover" felt like... Then I didn't drink again till attempting to come off heroin in 2015, but never drank during the day because I still had obligations during the day. I was drinking to self-medicate, and was unaware that unlike with benzos, where I've never developed a tolerance (1mg klonopin affects me now the same way it did 18yrs ago.)& my alcohol tolerance quickly went up to 2L per day & nobody knew I drank until I quit drinking the first time after developing pancreatitis and being hospitalized for 10 days.
At the time of the last DUI in Aug '17, I hadn't drank since Nov '16 when I went back to rehab after a short 4 month relapse (got 2 DUI within a few days of each other Aug '16) at the beginning of the relapse.
So given the choice of a benzo or booze, ill take the benzo without question. In fact, I've had the same handful of valium and ativan in my cabinet for nearly a year now and occasionally will take 1/2 a valium or something, but can't remember the last time I took one... Actually, I take that back, I believe I took a full tab before I went to court last November.
So all these "drunk/alcoholic/can't stay away from booze" comments are laughable. With the exception of Aug -Nov '16, I only used it to deal with painkiller withdrawal. And far as the "junkie" comments? I'm subject to random testing at any time... And the "drug seeking" comments? Explain why I choose to check out of the hospital when I could've waited just 3-5mins and gotten a 2mg iv dose of Diluadid. "Drug seeking" lol.
And back to the original reason for the post, the rhabdomyolysis I'm not entirely sure it's gone because every morning for the past few days, display my pee being much much clearer after a few days of bumex and aldactone twice a day, every morning when I get out of bed, my feet my knees and my neck hurt like f****** hell, which according to Google are still symptoms of rhabdo and kidneys still dealing with some damage from the rhabdomyolysis. My lower legs are still swollen like f***, however they're down a little bit today but my hands and face aren't swollen at all. Same thing in self with when I had my hip surgery, when Drs were concerned with A-Fib, however my heart tests have always come back perfect (to my surprise, even when on full blast cycles at 235-240lbs when my test levels were 9k+). Even been slacking on.my baclofen and gabapentin doses which are supposed to be 20mg/800mg 3x\day.. I've only been taking a single dose at night. (Both prescribed, & both have zero "recreational value" btw).
