Meeting with Dr two weeks after surgery. He also had a DVT in the leg.
calumvonmogerIG family, forgive my silence. I needed some time to gather thoughts.. 💭
It’s been two weeks since my surgery. The hardest two weeks of my life I would say. I’ve been bedside since they found a blood clot (DVT) in my leg which can be very painful when I move around. I’ve been on blood thinners for over a week now but it can take a couple of months for DVT to dissolve.
Here is what I need to share with you the most:
Ive never hit rock bottom mentally and physically like this before. With a torn quadriceps and biceps (again) many of you would think it’s game over. That there is no chance I could comeback from this. That is my biggest fear. If I believe that I can’t beat this, I’m finished.
Self doubt is the worst thing that can happen to anyone with a dream!! .
>> Doubt Kills More Dreams Then Fear Ever Will <<
I have to mentally block myself every time I think “I can’t” I have to tell myself “I will”. The demons of doubt waged a war against my will to fight back, to be stronger then before. I won’t lie I was 50/50 there for a while. I felt every emotion possible (scared, nervous, anxiety, self-doubt) and probably a few more I didn’t know i had. But, all it took were positive thoughts and positive people to help me believe in myself and set me back on the right track. .
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So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you all so much for the endless support and love. I am very grateful God has blessed me with loyal friends and followers reaching out to help and check in on me at my lowest and my supportive IG family sending me encouraging messages, emails daily— I become overwhelmed and shy because of your heartfelt kindness, I don’t know which words to use to describe how much it truly means to me. You fill me with hope where others have left me in despair. .
I want you to know these 2 things:
1. that I will not give up on my goals or ambitions. I’m going to fight to overcome each obstacle in my path. I will become stronger then before. I will share my struggles and pain with you. 🔧
2. that I am extremely grateful for each and every one of you that have shown me support. I love you guys and I won’t forget your kindness 🙏🏼❤️
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