Author Topic: Sorry to say,but I do have lung cancer ! (Read 89321 times)

The Scott · « **Reply #225 on:** November 12, 2019, 07:48:16 PM »

We cannot re-write the story which is our life but we can edit it. Do so by doing more. Do not treat every day as though it were your last but rather your first.

With wonder.

With joy.

With love.

With kindness.

And start with yourself. You are a wonder my friend. You are a joy to more than you know. You are loved by many but self-love is the first love. Without it there can be nothing. Kindness starts with you, for you toward you. Throughout the day you are surrounded by mirrors. People. They will reflect well upon you if they are polished with a kind word or a smile.

I tell you all this because I have been dead, albeit only for three or so minutes. I must say that I am disappointed that I saw nothing, heard nothing. Remembered nothing of those three minutes. I had to be told I had died. For a believer in the Nazarene that was, to say the least, very annoying.

But then, years later I realized that it mattered not what I was shown or not shown while dead but instead what I saw and heard when I awoke.

Family and friends. Dogs! Cats! Sky and sea. The world. The miracle of this Earth, if you will.

I no longer have faith in any deity and that is MY choice. I would never belittle a genuine follower of the Nazarene but have zero problem with idiots like tbombz and Wiggs. False profits is a term that suits them well. I put no stock in religion for by the word "religion" I have witnessed the idiocy of man. But what of "faith"?

Like love, the most important form of "faith" is having faith in oneself before ever placing such trust in someone else. When you one day look into the exact same mirror that you have been looking into all your life and you see someone that looks like you but is somehow "different", somehow "changed"and you wonder why...Then you may wish to seek out the "who" behind the "why".

Some here may choose to belittle my words because they are born of not only who I am but also who I was. I would hazard that the vast majority of them are libtards and/or Shizzo in his many dilapidated forms. To them I say this:

FTN.

To you Wes, my young friend I say this: In all ways and for always, be well dear friend.

wes · « **Reply #226 on:** November 12, 2019, 07:54:17 PM »

Thanks brother,very true words which send a very positive message.

I will make a great effort to put self belief and positivity in the forefront especially during this time of personal crisis if you will.

illuminati · « **Reply #227 on:** November 13, 2019, 02:33:46 PM »

Quote from: wes on November 12, 2019, 07:44:15 PM

I hate to say this because it isn`t easy......been down in the dumps all fucking day.

My GP called me this morning and informed me that I had some trouble with my Larynx/Trachea area that showed up on one of the scans.

I appreciate immensely all of the well wishes from you guys,I honestly do, and I trust that you honestly believe that because if you know me when I`m serious,I always try to keep it real.

PLEASe don`t PM me right now...........I actually break down with every PM that I`ve gotten.......you guys are fucking awesome people,even though I`ve only actually met a few of you in real life........I know you guys are fucking great because of the sincerity in your messages to me and they mean more to me than you could ever possibly imagine.......I truly mean that......I just cannot handle PM`s right now.

Lots of appointments starting tomorrow with a Cancer specialist and a ton after that.

It is what it is,but ironically,when I was a raging active alcoholic,I couldn`t have cared less if I woke up in the AM or not....didn`t give a flying fuck !

Now that I have put all of that BS behind me,I cherish life and don`t feel like cashing in my fucking chips yet.

Be assured that I will battle this fucker with all I`ve got mentally and medically....I quit being a quitter 20 years ago.

Not to sound faggy,but you guys are the best.

Once I get a handle on my emotions,I`ll update you guys as to my condition.

Christ I feel like a smarter better looking more masculine version of fucking Derek Anthony ! LOL

I won`t quit fighting,you guys know that,I just cannot deal with too much dwelling on this shit at the moment.

Thanks again my brothers in IRON.....all the best to you all !!

Respect To You Wes.
Do what you Have To - Put Yourself 1st
Cry / Scream / Hit The Heavy Bag Get it all out
Then Re-Focus & Keep a Positive Mind.

My Thoughts & Best Wishes are With You.

👍🏻 💪🏻

illuminati · « **Reply #228 on:** November 13, 2019, 02:38:52 PM »

Quote from: The Scott on November 12, 2019, 07:48:16 PM

We cannot re-write the story which is our life but we can edit it. Do so by doing more. Do not treat every day as though it were your last but rather your first.

With wonder.

With joy.

With love.

With kindness.

And start with yourself. You are a wonder my friend. You are a joy to more than you know. You are loved by many but self-love is the first love. Without it there can be nothing. Kindness starts with you, for you toward you. Throughout the day you are surrounded by mirrors. People. They will reflect well upon you if they are polished with a kind word or a smile.

I tell you all this because I have been dead, albeit only for three or so minutes. I must say that I am disappointed that I saw nothing, heard nothing. Remembered nothing of those three minutes. I had to be told I had died. For a believer in the Nazarene that was, to say the least, very annoying.

But then, years later I realized that it mattered not what I was shown or not shown while dead but instead what I saw and heard when I awoke.

Family and friends. Dogs! Cats! Sky and sea. The world. The miracle of this Earth, if you will.

I no longer have faith in any deity and that is MY choice. I would never belittle a genuine follower of the Nazarene but have zero problem with idiots like tbombz and Wiggs. False profits is a term that suits them well. I put no stock in religion for by the word "religion" I have witnessed the idiocy of man. But what of "faith"?

Like love, the most important form of "faith" is having faith in oneself before ever placing such trust in someone else. When you one day look into the exact same mirror that you have been looking into all your life and you see someone that looks like you but is somehow "different", somehow "changed"and you wonder why...Then you may wish to seek out the "who" behind the "why".

Some here may choose to belittle my words because they are born of not only who I am but also who I was. I would hazard that the vast majority of them are libtards and/or Shizzo in his many dilapidated forms. To them I say this:

FTN.

To you Wes, my young friend I say this: In all ways and for always, be well dear friend.

Outstanding Scott
Very well said
Inspiring & impressive
A lot of insight there.

Thanks for Those Words To Wes & us All.

Marty Champions · « **Reply #229 on:** November 13, 2019, 02:40:38 PM »

Buy shit to be happy like rest of the usa f150 mericans starting with more food like grapes

Dokey111 · « **Reply #230 on:** November 13, 2019, 03:03:52 PM »

A lot of people have to go through this bs Wes. Find a good treatment center. My only experience is my wife's. She was treated at Moffitt in Tampa and they were unbelievably great to both of us. Best wishes brother.

WalterWhite · « **Reply #231 on:** November 13, 2019, 03:39:59 PM »

Brother

You're in a deep dark hole at present. The superfluous noise of doctors is burning your ears and panic is filling your soul.

BUT you've been here before at another time, in another place. You know how to claw your way out of that dark hole inch by inch..with strength in your soul that will snuff out the panic and quiet the noise.

The fight is one second, one minute, one hour, one day at a time..

Montague · « **Reply #232 on:** November 13, 2019, 03:59:14 PM »

Quote from: wes on October 30, 2019, 10:22:26 AM

In the right lower lobe there is a nodule identified worrisome for malignancy

Measuring 3.0X2.2 cm.

Pet scan is recommended. There is calcification over the right hemidiaphragm consistant with some plural calcifications.

No other significant findings.
IMPRESSION:a 3.ox 2.2cm. right lower lobe lesion,very concerning for a primary lung malignancy.

PET CT recommended and./or biopsy.

Doctor told me that it is very small and they caught it early so chances are good.

Got a biopsy scheduled for Thursday Nov. 7th.

Lucky thing I`m sober because back in the day I`d be immersed iin my second quart of JD by now.

Oh well,nobody to blame but myself.

I am going to pray for you, YOUNG MAN!!!

😇😇😇🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

Primemuscle · « **Reply #233 on:** November 13, 2019, 04:13:04 PM »

Quote from: wes on November 12, 2019, 07:44:15 PM

I hate to say this because it isn`t easy......been down in the dumps all fucking day.

My GP called me this morning and informed me that I had some trouble with my Larynx/Trachea area that showed up on one of the scans.

I appreciate immensely all of the well wishes from you guys,I honestly do, and I trust that you honestly believe that because if you know me when I`m serious,I always try to keep it real.

PLEASe don`t PM me right now...........I actually break down with every PM that I`ve gotten.......you guys are fucking awesome people,even though I`ve only actually met a few of you in real life........I know you guys are fucking great because of the sincerity in your messages to me and they mean more to me than you could ever possibly imagine.......I truly mean that......I just cannot handle PM`s right now.

Lots of appointments starting tomorrow with a Cancer specialist and a ton after that.

It is what it is,but ironically,when I was a raging active alcoholic,I couldn`t have cared less if I woke up in the AM or not....didn`t give a flying fuck !

Now that I have put all of that BS behind me,I cherish life and don`t feel like cashing in my fucking chips yet.

Be assured that I will battle this fucker with all I`ve got mentally and medically....I quit being a quitter 20 years ago.

Not to sound faggy,but you guys are the best.

Once I get a handle on my emotions,I`ll update you guys as to my condition.

Christ I feel like a smarter better looking more masculine version of fucking Derek Anthony ! LOL

I won`t quit fighting,you guys know that,I just cannot deal with too much dwelling on this shit at the moment.

Thanks again my brothers in IRON.....all the best to you all !!

Every morning when you wake up and as often as you think of it during the day, make the two sentences I bolded your mantra.

P.S. You are way, way better looking than Derek Anthony ever was. You are a much better person too.

wes · « **Reply #234 on:** November 13, 2019, 05:49:55 PM »

Thanks very much guys,I just wanted you all to realize that your support of me has been the shot in my arm that I needed,and the post above wasn`t meant to disrespect anyone here by any means.....it`s just a bitch on my emotions to read the PM`s that I`m receiving............... No BS I actually break down like a weak little bitch because of the kindness you guys have extended to me...............Tapewor m knows this........... that fucking guy is one outstanding human being as are the rest of you guys.

Got a few complications that came up but yesterday I took a serious blow which robbed me of the positivitey I had garnered.

I`m feeling better emotionally but the personal messages tear at my heart.

I feel like total fag saying all this but it`s honestly how I feel.

You guys are a bunch of nuts on this board but when shit gets serious and jokes get put aside,you are all quality human beings.

I knew that all the time anyway,but this chapter in my life has brought this fact to clarity.

Thanks for the thoughts,prayers,and kindness,,,,,it will never be forgotten.

I`m just about ready to go to war with this b itch and I`m pissed so I hope it packed a lunch with a dessert because it`s in for a long gruelling fight.

Thanks again guys.............much appreciated.

The Scott · « **Reply #235 on:** November 13, 2019, 05:59:33 PM »

Quote from: illuminati on November 13, 2019, 02:38:52 PM

Outstanding Scott
Very well said
Inspiring & impressive
A lot of insight there.

Thanks for Those Words To Wes & us All.

Thank you my friend. Coming from you, whom along with several others here I greatly admire, that is a compliment indeed.

I have found that life is nothing if not a series of fleeting glances at life's reflections and if we are fortunate, sometimes the mirror looks back and smiles. Our friends are the best mirrors to be found. Again, thank you for your kind words.

DroppingPlates · « **Reply #236 on:** November 14, 2019, 04:24:54 AM »

After a long absence I decided to read what is going on lately on GB, and now I'm reading this

Tim, stay strong brother during these tough times!

mac33 · « **Reply #237 on:** November 14, 2019, 04:52:16 AM »

Wish you all the best Wes, stay strong and in good spirits, you are not alone in this, God bless you.

Stark · « **Reply #238 on:** November 14, 2019, 04:57:42 AM »

Quote from: wes on November 13, 2019, 05:49:55 PM

Thanks very much guys,I just wanted you all to realize that your support of me has been the shot in my arm that I needed,and the post above wasn`t meant to disrespect anyone here by any means.....it`s just a bitch on my emotions to read the PM`s that I`m receiving............... No BS I actually break down like a weak little bitch because of the kindness you guys have extended to me...............Tapewor m knows this........... that fucking guy is one outstanding human being as are the rest of you guys.

Got a few complications that came up but yesterday I took a serious blow which robbed me of the positivitey I had garnered.

I`m feeling better emotionally but the personal messages tear at my heart.

I feel like total fag saying all this but it`s honestly how I feel.

You guys are a bunch of nuts on this board but when shit gets serious and jokes get put aside,you are all quality human beings.

I knew that all the time anyway,but this chapter in my life has brought this fact to clarity.

Thanks for the thoughts,prayers,and kindness,,,,,it will never be forgotten.

I`m just about ready to go to war with this b itch and I`m pissed so I hope it packed a lunch with a dessert because it`s in for a long gruelling fight.

Thanks again guys.............much appreciated.

Today I thought, I haven't fucked with Wes for a long time, then I read that you have fucking cancer,

Love you bro, I hope you get better soon

rocket · « **Reply #239 on:** November 14, 2019, 04:59:46 AM »

Quote from: wes on November 13, 2019, 05:49:55 PM

Got a few complications that came up but yesterday I took a serious blow which robbed me of the positivitey I had garnered.

Try to keep this in mind when your positivity is at stake:

Every human in that room where you're getting bad news is a dead man / woman, too.

We all have our ticket to leave. Not one of us is going to escape. This is a temporary existence.

Stop thinking of death as the end. It isn't. It's the end of a temporary ride.

And yes, life has value - therefore you're allowed to feel bad about the idea of it being at attack of coming to an end but it is only worth something because it has an end. If you were immortal, every single possible experience would be tainted for you. There would be no emotions left.

When you look back at times and wish you could be there, that's because they are finitely perceived moments. You cannot have that without your ticket to leave.

Again, I'm not saying be sad that something is trying to get you to leave, but remember, if you do have to leave - it's not so bad.

It'll be alright, either way.

Pet shop boys · « **Reply #240 on:** November 14, 2019, 05:12:19 AM »

Quote from: wes on November 12, 2019, 07:44:15 PM

I hate to say this because it isn`t easy......been down in the dumps all fucking day.

My GP called me this morning and informed me that I had some trouble with my Larynx/Trachea area that showed up on one of the scans.

I appreciate immensely all of the well wishes from you guys,I honestly do, and I trust that you honestly believe that because if you know me when I`m serious,I always try to keep it real.

PLEASe don`t PM me right now...........I actually break down with every PM that I`ve gotten.......you guys are fucking awesome people,even though I`ve only actually met a few of you in real life........I know you guys are fucking great because of the sincerity in your messages to me and they mean more to me than you could ever possibly imagine.......I truly mean that......I just cannot handle PM`s right now.

Lots of appointments starting tomorrow with a Cancer specialist and a ton after that.

It is what it is,but ironically,when I was a raging active alcoholic,I couldn`t have cared less if I woke up in the AM or not....didn`t give a flying fuck !

Now that I have put all of that BS behind me,I cherish life and don`t feel like cashing in my fucking chips yet.

Be assured that I will battle this fucker with all I`ve got mentally and medically....I quit being a quitter 20 years ago.

Not to sound faggy,but you guys are the best.

Once I get a handle on my emotions,I`ll update you guys as to my condition.

Christ I feel like a smarter better looking more masculine version of fucking Derek Anthony ! LOL

I won`t quit fighting,you guys know that,I just cannot deal with too much dwelling on this shit at the moment.

Thanks again my brothers in IRON.....all the best to you all !!

I won't PM you, but keep us updated please , you're in our thoughts .

WoooSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHH team WES

loco · « **Reply #241 on:** November 14, 2019, 05:34:03 AM »

Quote from: wes on November 13, 2019, 05:49:55 PM

Thanks very much guys,I just wanted you all to realize that your support of me has been the shot in my arm that I needed,and the post above wasn`t meant to disrespect anyone here by any means.....it`s just a bitch on my emotions to read the PM`s that I`m receiving............... No BS I actually break down like a weak little bitch because of the kindness you guys have extended to me...............Tapewor m knows this........... that fucking guy is one outstanding human being as are the rest of you guys.

Got a few complications that came up but yesterday I took a serious blow which robbed me of the positivitey I had garnered.

I`m feeling better emotionally but the personal messages tear at my heart.

I feel like total fag saying all this but it`s honestly how I feel.

You guys are a bunch of nuts on this board but when shit gets serious and jokes get put aside,you are all quality human beings.

I knew that all the time anyway,but this chapter in my life has brought this fact to clarity.

Thanks for the thoughts,prayers,and kindness,,,,,it will never be forgotten.

I`m just about ready to go to war with this b itch and I`m pissed so I hope it packed a lunch with a dessert because it`s in for a long gruelling fight.

Thanks again guys.............much appreciated.

Praying for you, wes! A strict ketogenic diet combined with intermittent fasting (nothing but water and salt), can't hurt.

wes · « **Reply #242 on:** November 14, 2019, 06:39:54 AM »

Quote from: DroppingPlates on November 14, 2019, 04:24:54 AM

After a long absence I decided to read what is going on lately on GB, and now I'm reading this
Tim, stay strong brother during these tough times!

DP glad to see you back brother.....I got another appointment with the doc today but I`m now in fight mode so I`m feeling much better.

Welcome back..hope all is well with you and yours

Twaddle · « **Reply #243 on:** November 14, 2019, 06:46:51 AM »

Quote from: wes on November 14, 2019, 06:39:54 AM

DP glad to see you back brother.....I got another appointment with the doc today but I`m now in fight mode so I`m feeling much better.

Welcome back..hope all is well with you and yours

If your doctor says, "Sorry Wes, you have cancer." You respond with, "Nope, sorry doc, the cancer has Wes!"

wes · « **Reply #244 on:** November 14, 2019, 06:57:22 AM »

Thanks mac,Stark,rocket,Pet Shop and loco......good stuff that I need to hear to help me keep going.

Thanks fellas.......I don`t feel so all alone even though this is ONLY the internet.

At 64 years of age living way up here almost off the grid,I really don`t hang out with anybody though I have quite a ton of aqqaintances up here in the woods I am basically just with my wife and she is a total wreck............doesn`t seem to want to face the reality of this with me yet....almost in denial sort of, or it hasn`t fully hit her yet.

So you guys and some friends on YT,my sisters back in Mass,.,my step daughter,and a few others have actually become my support system.

Been here since 2002 and feel like a part of a family even though we`re all crazy fucks!!

I hope I don`t come off as a guy just seeking sympathy because that`s not what I`m seeking,I told you guys about my condition initially because of the bond that we have here as a lot of us have been here forever for Christs sake.

I`m rambling now so thanks guys stay safe and stay well.

wes · « **Reply #245 on:** November 14, 2019, 07:00:54 AM »

Quote from: Twaddle on November 14, 2019, 06:46:51 AM

If your doctor says, "Sorry Wes, you have cancer." You respond with, "Nope, sorry doc, the cancer has Wes!"

Good shit Twaddle and that`s just the attitude that I HAVE to have.

Hard to stay focused with this but I`m trying real hard not to keep allowing my mind to let self doubt and negativity creep back into the picture..not an easy thing for me but I`m getting pissed off about the whole situation which is bolstering my confidence.

Thanks brother!

Stark · « **Reply #246 on:** November 14, 2019, 07:36:49 AM »

Quote from: wes on November 14, 2019, 06:57:22 AM

Thanks mac,Stark,rocket,Pet Shop and loco......good stuff that I need to hear to help me keep going.

Thanks fellas.......I don`t feel so all alone even though this is ONLY the internet.

At 64 years of age living way up here almost off the grid,I really don`t hang out with anybody though I have quite a ton of aqqaintances up here in the woods I am basically just with my wife and she is a total wreck............doesn`t seem to want to face the reality of this with me yet....almost in denial sort of, or it hasn`t fully hit her yet.

So you guys and some friends on YT,my sisters back in Mass,.,my step daughter,and a few others have actually become my support system.

Been here since 2002 and feel like a part of a family even though we`re all crazy fucks!!

I hope I don`t come off as a guy just seeking sympathy because that`s not what I`m seeking,I told you guys about my condition initially because of the bond that we have here as a lot of us have been here forever for Christs sake.

I`m rambling now so thanks guys stay safe and stay well.

Dude, I'm 45 and I am thinking of cancer a lot, comes with that age I guess. Problem is whenever you read an article, surf the web all you see is cancer cancer cancer. You just get so hypersensitive that you have to watch yourself not to get paranoid (I had that a few years ago where I was convinced that I will get cancer).
In your example, dude, you have a excellent chance beating this, 65 is a good age, you are strong, you don't have HIV etc. What I read is that you caught it very early as well, we have come a LOOOOONG ass way when it comes to cancer and cancer treatment, meaning you have medication that doesn't make you feel like shit anymore. So heads up ol fella, go for it, THIS is the time to be the warrior that you are. Remember we are remembered for how we act in situations like that.

illuminati · « **Reply #247 on:** November 14, 2019, 08:23:59 AM »

Quote from: DroppingPlates on November 14, 2019, 04:24:54 AM

After a long absence I decided to read what is going on lately on GB, and now I'm reading this
Tim, stay strong brother during these tough times!

Come on DP just the 1 More Post

Hope you’re doing well & are in good health
👍🏻

Princess L · « **Reply #248 on:** November 14, 2019, 08:55:52 AM »

Received this message from a banned account.

"Would it be possible to get my account approved even on a temporay basis? I just wanted to send some kind words to Wes.Thanks in advance."

Don't know who it is because they didn't indicate the account name. If they'd like to try again via the same method with the banned account name, the mods may honor the request.

loco · « **Reply #249 on:** November 14, 2019, 09:15:59 AM »

Quote from: Princess L on November 14, 2019, 08:55:52 AM

Received this message from a banned account.

"Would it be possible to get my account approved even on a temporay basis? I just wanted to send some kind words to Wes.Thanks in advance."

Don't know who it is because they didn't indicate the account name. If they'd like to try again via the same method with the banned account name, the mods may honor the request.

Was it pedo TA? LOL...I kid, I kid.