Got a few complications that came up but yesterday I took a serious blow which robbed me of the positivitey I had garnered.
Try to keep this in mind when your positivity is at stake:
Every human in that room where you're getting bad news is a dead man / woman, too.
We all have our ticket to leave. Not one of us is going to escape. This is a temporary existence.
Stop thinking of death as the end. It isn't. It's the end of a temporary ride.
And yes, life has value - therefore you're allowed to feel bad about the idea of it being at attack of coming to an end but it is only worth something because it has an end. If you were immortal, every single possible experience would be tainted for you. There would be no emotions left.
When you look back at times and wish you could be there, that's because they are finitely perceived moments. You cannot have that without your ticket to leave.
Again, I'm not saying be sad that something is trying to get you to leave, but remember, if you do have to leave - it's not so bad.
It'll be alright, either way.