Wes I don't personally know you but from what little I do know I can tell you that of the people who beat the odds and come out of these situations on top you have the same internal fire. A close friend.of.mine spent the last 3-4 years with CHF his legs were all blown up he was drowning his legs were leaking fluid he had exposed nerve beds etcetc. I knew I KNEW he was too stubborn to die and right now today hes made about 90% recovery. His ejection fraction is almost totally normal hes walking around like nothing happened. I cannot tell you how many times the best cardiologists stanford doctors gave him days to live. He was on hospice for 6 months!
Today hes almost totally fine. I dont know exaxtly why but i do recall telling him to tell his doctors to fuck right off and that a recovery is always possible. He believed me over them. If he will allow ill send some recent photos of his legs. Nobody believes Wes, no one!
But i never lost faith. And thus neither did he.
Do not lose hope man till the bitter end if thats what happens but until you live your last day anything is possible. With God all things are possible. (My friend is uh lets call him a non Christian that will suffice.)
Fuck cancer. Fuck whoever tells you whats gonna happen in your future. No one knows but God. Anybody who brings you down or tells you bad news get rid of them.
Mike thanks a lot............a very heartfelt message and thank God for your friends persistance.
I`ll be honest with you at times I feel like saying to Hell with it and just start drinking again.............been sober for 18 years now and during that time period I`ve only thought about it briefly 1-2 times or so and quickly dismissed the thought.
I know it will only help to further my demise and I would feel as if I let myself as well as a lot of other people down.
Now at other times and this is most often the case I tell myself fuck this shit I ain`t going out easy.
Dodged a lot of bullets in my day and I hope to do the same in this situtaion.
I feel weak mentally at times but I have a will of iron when I get pissed off and I`m getting pissed more as each day passes so if I dont make it,it wont be for lack of trying on my part.
Thanks again and God bless you as well as your friend.............remar
kable story of a man who was driven to stay alive.