Got some great news recently which has turned my doom and gloom pessimistic attitude into one of great hope and optomism.
As you know surgery is not an option in my case and they do not have the Gamma Knife in this area but I will be undergoing what`s called Focus Radiation......80-95 % effective.
Also I have recently found at that I do NOT have a tumor in my throat.......I almost cried with joy, and am far from religious but I thanked God repeatedly.............. .......REPEATEDLY !!
It seems a tumor did appear in my throat during first series of scans...........than after the second series I was assured by 3 of my 6 doctors along with the head of the Cancer Research Center that it was only a nodule that showed up during the scan and not a tumor (in my best Arnold voice) and this is quite a common occurence according to the experts.
I figured if I was to survive my lung issues than I would have to deal with my throat issues.......this is no longer the case and it has taken a great load of off my mind as you can probably imagine.
As far as the Focus Radiation goes it only entails 3-5 15 minute sessions of high radiotion.........most like only 3 ......best case scenario !!
Of course the docs advised me that I may have microscopic cells in my lymph nodes and that this may or may not happen.....I`m hoping for the latter !! LOL 
I have whats called Adeno Carcinanoma............s mall cell Cancer in Stage one status which is good...........caught in the early stage.
After the 3-5 sessions are over then its a scan after 4 months.....than another series of scans after 3 more months................th an a scan after 6 months time.
After 2 years with no reoccurence I`m just about good to go.
I might have a bit of scarring and at this juncture. Right now I`m getting what is called a mapping session...............th ey have marked my abdomen,mid chest and armpits with a marker covered in plastic to deter removal during showering.
These marking will be followed by more tests where they determine the angles of the rays from various positions over a series of 3 visits to best determine target areas without affecting close proximity organs...............sho oting into these targets as marked.
Some residual effects are normal but not too too dangerous.
It entails ony a few visits of high radiation for 15 minutes at a time...........3-5 visits only most likely only 3 they said !
Man I feel like I have a new lease on life..............I`ve been pronounced dead on 3 different occasions due to overdoses,had Hepatitus B which laid me up in the hospital for 7 days with a 105 degree fever,had Colitis a few years ago which caused me to lose 40 pounds and look wraith like..........SO if I get through this I will make new lifestyle changes and well as new mental outlook changes...........just planning to be a better person and devote some time to charities or possibly speaking to Cancer victims.....this is all pending of course.....the speaking that is, not the lifestyle changes.
I`m planning a new dietary regimen and due to my COPD cant exercise much but am considering GAY ASS yoga Not much aerobic activity) and light dumbell work at home as well as walking as far as I can daily as much as my COPD will allow.
Dont want to count my chickens before they hatch but damn I`m positive again that I will make it after all I`ve been here before but continued being and idiot..........this will not be the case if I make it out alive this time.
Thank you all for the constant support as always your good vibes have helped my cuz I had none whether I stated I did or not.
More to say but getting teary eyed and not ashamed to admit it.
Thanks my getbig family.................. .....from the bottom of my heart.
Stage one! Yahoo! You are going to beat this, big guy. Wow, wow, wow! I cannot begin to express how happy I am for your right now. Thank you so much for sharing this excellent news. We are all here for you. You were never in this fight alone. We Getbiggers, assholes though we may be at times, are right now breathing a sigh or relief.
Okay....now that this has been said. Get your lazy fucking ass back into training like the animal you and all of us know you are...no excuses!
Love you man.
