I can relate. I understand depression on an intellectual level but have never experienced it myself.
Only my 20’s after a break up have I felt depressed.
I was just an idiot who made mistakes I had to live with.
It helped me settle down and by 28 I met my wife.
Taking drugs for it could have ruined me personally.
I am not making some blanket (Bhanket?) statement that everyone shouldn’t use drugs though.