You know, you see these other BBer's who didn't make it to the big time or win the big show... (or any show)... and you look in their eyes and you can see that they realize that the toll of BBing on their health, careers, family, relationships, etc.. was NOT worth it in the long run.
You look in DP's eyes and you can instantly tell that he really does think all the shit he is dealing with now was worth a flash in the pan a decade or so ago. Even though it didn't pan out and he never turned pro.. instead he was a laughing stock with a melting condition named after him. He keeps himself submerged in the BBing in various ways thinking each time that "this will be the one that works out for me and proves I belong here, I'll be rich now.."