The doctor said no weights whatsoever, although I don't see how doing sitting alternate bb curls is gonna mess w/ my back, etc. I have this "thing"--can't remember what it's called, that I bought from a boxing company (heavy metal bars, bolts, washers, nuts, pads and grips for support) and put it together myself. It allows me to do wide-grip chins, which I said I can't even manage, regular chins, dips, leg lifts and sit-ups. I just use it for dips. Every day. Used to be able to do three sets of fifteen 6 months ago. Then, I lost my job, lost motivation, and stopped until about a month ago. I'm up to three sets of six now. My tri's are a bit harder and a little more defined, but I seriously don't even know if it's worth it to be consuming more than RDA for protein. I do push-ups once in a while with push-up bars, but I don't do crunches cuz I'm afraid I might strain my back.
As far as drinking goes, I used to be a binge drinker, as you asked, but unlike a lot of kids, I didn't start drinking til after college, which I wasn't able to finish. After a certain point, I'd just drink exponentially until I passed out or someone brought me home. Don't drink like that anymore. That's not the cause of the anxiety. I don't think it's hereditary. Pretty much had a nerv breakdown in college and I've been on prescription drugs ever since 1999. Unfortunately, I'm told I'll prob be on this stuff for the rest of my life, unless they make great strides in nanotechnology and I get some chips planted in my brain to control the release of neurotransmitters, hehe. But, I've already accepted what they said. I just hate it though when I tell people my situation (if they ask) and they're like there's no miracle drugs out there that will increase your appetite up to par. But there are: HIV patients and cancer patients take certain drugs that do just that. Unfortunately, my condition isn't "serious" enough to need that kind of help. Maybe if I lose another 20 pounds (not on purpose), my doc will take some sort of action.
I've never listened to relaxation tapes, but breathing correctly seems to help a lot and just sitting in front of a movie really seems to slow the flood of thoughts cuz I'm focused what's going on. Thanks for your offerings of prayer and what not. If my anxiety level were about half what it normally is, this reply would be about four sentences I think. Sorry bro.