I drank and drugged for 33 years................com pletely ruined my life.
I dont have much today but I didn`t puke in someones car, or on my shoes,spend my rent money on drugs,or make a total ashole of myself during a blackout.
I could tell you some horror stories bud
Did you mean to say did or "didn't" as you wrote. I was an instant alcoholic from 15-40 after trying it the first time...runs in the family. GHB cam into my life at around 19. I always made rent, but I have many time made an asshole out of myself and puked all over myself while G'd up or on X in front of clubs zip tied until someone vouched for me, and took a breathalyzer to prove they weren't drunk and would get me home safe. One of the benefits of working at a gym is all the cops, ATF, FBI, etc. work out there, and know you so I got cut a lot of slack many times when others would have gotten steel cuffs and spent the night in jail plus charges to come back to face. I remember the first time I tried coke which when a friend of mine was friends with a huge dealer (2 stints in Leavonworth). We went to an after hours club with a few chicks we met at the after hour bar. Everyone of us had our shirts off, and would go into the bathroom in groups to take another cap of G, and snort some coke. Cops were right outside the door, and just gave us the "look" as we came out....they knew what was going on there and with us specifically. I went home with one of the girls, and started fucking her b4 her roommate came downstairs and fucked it up. Called my friend in the morning to come and get me to pick up my car which I left at the club. On the way home he asked how I was doing since that was my first time with coke. I said "Chad,you know me and how extreme I am with everything. Don't ever let me use that shit more than once a month or I'll be a junkie" He replied, "I know dude, you were having way more fun than normal and were outta your mind. Don't worry, I got your back and won't give you any for a while"
I still drink every other weekend, and hide my keys so I don't leave. I quit cold turkey for 6+ months b4 Covid, but being almost 50, stuck at home, and not being able to work out at the gym gets me angry and depressed so I tell myself it's ok as long as I'm not doing it every day.
Tim, always liked you here and on MM and respect not only your honesty, but how you've managed to give everything up totally. Keep it up! You're what many on and off these boards wish they could be.

I honestly don't know how I never ended up in a coma or dead. That first night on coke when we were driving down the interstate which had cones every where as it was being fixed up and widened doing about 90, and passing around "corners" for a 30 minute drive. If you don't know what "corners" are, it's dipping your DL into whatever the coke is in and sniffing it off of the corner or it.