It Was Hard

[B_B_C]

It just showed that people cared about me. Especially Chaos. 

gosh
no wonder its hard for you

[Cook]

Sorry to hear about this Shizzo you have my best wishes.

yes this from me also

[King Shizzo]

get used to it, stop feeling sorry for yourself, everyone dies, circle of life

Are You a robot? I get that time heals things, but I get the impression that you aren't that close to your family. That means a lot in the discussion that we are having.

If you genuinely love your family, it hurts when they die.

[rick doot]

I just feel like I am so hard I can't be faded

What does this even mean?

[wes]

Acceptance come after a while Shizz....sometime it take a while though.....it ain`t easy.

Stay busy and remember...this too shall pass.

Good luck buddy.

[King Shizzo]

Acceptance come after a while Shizz....sometime it take a while though.....it ain`t easy.

Stay busy and remember...this too shall pass.

Good luck buddy.

Thanks, Wes. I've literally never gone through this before.

Especially everybody at the same time.

Grandma, Father, and Mother, within 6 months.

That's fucked up, no matter how you slice it.

[Henda]

Sounds tough mate, death of a loved one never really gets “better” you just learn to deal with it and carry on with life but sorry to say there will always be a massive hole and it never goes away. Find some new things thst bring you some form of joy, it will never be a replacement more of a way to cope

[bhank]

What does this even mean?

In 1994 the documentary for Gang Wars Banging in Little Rock came out. It was supposed to hurt democratic candidate Bill Clinton as it showed little Rock was a Cesspool of violence gangs and drugs. When they interviewed the 17 year old leader of the drug dealing driveby committing crip gang how he became the leader and he said the old leader was shot and killed. They then asked him if he was worried he would be killed and he responded. "I just feel like I am so Hard I can't be Faded" not sure how the meaning is not self evident. Faded means killed he is saying he is so badass he is unkillable. In white boy getbig speak he is so strong he is invincible.

[King Shizzo]

Sounds tough mate, death of a loved one never really gets “better” you just learn to deal with it and carry on with life but sorry to say there will always be a massive hole and it never goes away. Find some new things thst bring you some form of joy, it will never be a replacement more of a way to cope

Thanks, Henda.

I didn't mean for this to be a pity party, but besides my family, I need an outlet, or else I will go insane.

I appreciate your advice.

[ThisisOverload]

You could be right. But I guess it also is based on how close you are to your family.

I had a conversation with my brother a few years back. I told him (At the time) that we had been extremely lucky, when it came to deaths in the family. I said "unfortunately, it's only going to get worse from here."

Little did I know, that the house of cards was just waiting to fall.

I'm from an old school country farm family. About as close as you can get.

The point i'm making is that you either learn how to deal with these things or they haunt you forever.

I learned how to manage things that are out of my control many years ago. It's something everyone needs to learn how to do.

Also, i've experienced some wild things in my life and learned to let things go.

You telling people about "how close you are makes a difference" is just your way of justifying your grief.

I should be charging you for giving you advice. It's obvious you just want to vent and get a few pats on the back. Which isn't going to help you at all.

[Marty Champions]

In our prayers shizzo

[Dave D]

Thanks, Wes. I've literally never gone through this before.

Especially everybody at the same time.

Grandma, Father, and Mother, within 6 months.

That's fucked up, no matter how you slice it.

That’s rough, my condolences.

Don’t dwell on the negative, it could have been worse. You had them for 40 years, you were shortchanged but you were blessed to have your whole family for 40 years.  You could have lost them all in a car accident. Be grateful you were fortunate enoughto say your goodbyes.

Stay strong dude it will get better.

[Gym-Rat]

Are You a robot? I get that time heals things, but I get the impression that you aren't that close to your family. That means a lot in the discussion that we are having.

If you genuinely love your family, it hurts when they die.

im older and have lost many, so maybe desensitized a bit
remember all the good times with them

[King Shizzo]

I'm from an old school country farm family. About as close as you can get.

The point i'm making is that you either learn how to deal with these things or they haunt you forever.

I learned how to manage things that are out of my control many years ago. It's something everyone needs to learn how to do.

Also, i've experienced some wild things in my life and learned to let things go.

You telling people about "how close you are makes a difference" is just your way of justifying your grief.

I should be charging you for giving you advice. It's obvious you just want to vent and get a few pats on the back. Which isn't going to help you at all.

But it's not obvious about anything. "Pats on the back?" Are you serious? 

Pats on the back.....that's literally one of the worst things you can say in this situation.

What the fuck.

[ThisisOverload]

But it's not obvious about anything. "Pats on the back?" Are you serious? 

Pats on the back.....that's literally one of the worst things you can say in this situation.

What the fuck.

You came here for sympathy.

I'm sorry if i offended you by pointing out the obvious.

I'll let you get back to your regular scheduled program.

[bhank]

Let me break this down.

Shizzo you need a girlfriend. Maybe if you started working out you might find one easier?

[King Shizzo]

You came here for sympathy.

I'm sorry if i offended you by pointing out the obvious.

I'll let you get back to your regular scheduled program.

I came here for advice from some smart ass people. Getbig, is a hub for some of the smartest people on the planet. As the fake King, I have navigated the treacherous waters for literally 18 years, and before that, on Muscle Mayhem.

I'm an OG.

[King Shizzo]

Let me break this down.

Shizzo you need a girlfriend. Maybe if you started working out you might find one easier?

I just pay for them.

[bhank]

I just pay for them.

Which is probably why you are a depressed fat drunk who doesn't even lift. Get a real girlfriend you will feel better

[King Shizzo]

Which is probably why you are a depressed fat drunk who doesn't even lift. Get a real girlfriend you will feel better

We all just pay for them.

[joswift]

Which is probably why you are a depressed fat drunk who doesn't even lift. Get a real girlfriend you will feel better

What if she ends up filing restraining orders against him for no reason?

[Earl1972]

Which is probably why you are a depressed fat drunk who doesn't even lift. Get a real girlfriend you will feel better

a girl can also make him feel much worse, you can't count on a woman to make you happy and if he's depressed he is even less likely to get a girl to stick around

it's true what they say, happiness comes from within

E

[joswift]

a girl can also make him feel much worse, you can't count on a woman to make you happy and if he's depressed he is even less likely to get a girl to stick around

it's true what they say, happiness comes from within

E

an a penis goes in his mouth

[King Shizzo]

Which is probably why you are a depressed fat drunk who doesn't even lift. Get a real girlfriend you will feel better

I can sense it. You are literally on pins and needles.

[BB]

In 1994 the documentary for Gang Wars Banging in Little Rock came out. It was supposed to hurt democratic candidate Bill Clinton as it showed little Rock was a Cesspool of violence gangs and drugs. When they interviewed the 17 year old leader of the drug dealing driveby committing crip gang how he became the leader and he said the old leader was shot and killed. They then asked him if he was worried he would be killed and he responded. "I just feel like I am so Hard I can't be Faded" not sure how the meaning is not self evident. Faded means killed he is saying he is so badass he is unkillable. In white boy getbig speak he is so strong he is invincible.

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