Anti-depressents make you want to kill yourself.
I tried lyrica instead of benzodiazepines with my cocaine for a while. Lyrica and anti psychotics were dreadful to use even for a day or two. I felt they did more damage than anything else. Cannot fathom being on full time
I am off my head on coke most days lately. I get pure flake too it’s 76%. Only a few grams a day. Few benzoS here and there. Drunk driving most days. Don’t care anymore. I’ve Become dangerous. That’s what the lockdown did for me. I drink every day now too and haven’t trained properly in 4 months.
Yesterday I had in total 5-6 pints of Guinness and a 350ml bottle of Jameson throughout the day. Just here and there. That wasn’t much. At the weekends double that or treble. There’s more things too. That’s just some of it. Off the rails.