I cannot dispute anything you said.
Bigorexia is what it is. A mental addiction for sure.
Everybody has a neuroses of some sort. Some deal with their neuroses with drugs, alcohol, behaviors, etc.
Regarding your Endo, I'd not feel too good about what he said. His patients don't see him because they are healthy, so you being better than most of his sick patients is faint praise.
If I see an oncologist and he tells me my cancer is much better than most of his other patients I'd not feel good.
Not trying to lay a guilt trip on you but just the fact you need to see an endo for your drug use is not right thinking. It's smart you try to mitigate the risk though. But why even take the risk?
Agree 100%.
I believe steroids add to the mental problem, makes it worse. The first time i used Tren i felt unstoppable, like a God. These drugs do change the way you feel and mess up your mental state in large doses. That's why i regret playing the size game and using large amounts of them for years. But the last 6-7 years i just use a moderate dose. I think it's time to relax on that, as there is no reason for me to use them anymore.
True statement about seeing an endo, but the clients he sees are mainly guys like me who want to track their health, obviously comparing me to someone with a real illness is not a true relation, so you are valid on that statement.
My Endo is a friend i've known for 15 years and i actually served as a study for him. To see the impacts AAS have on a man's body. He was surprised by the results too, because for the beginning of his career he felt AAS were very destructive and they are, but there is a balance.
I've taken a lot of dumb risks in my life and if i could do it all again i probably would never use AAS, but at the same time i'm an example of what is possible if you evaluate the risks. But things may turn much worse as i get older, who knows.
I believe in moderation they are fine, but BBing is not about moderation and i do believe using AAS increases the mental problems with most of these guys. They don't want to be normal, they want to be monsters, at some point they need to wake up, but unfortunately a lot of them don't.
I've seen my Endo just to try and understand what is happening, the same way i get a full physical and health screen for cancer and other illnesses. But overall you are correct, it's not a risk many people should take and i don't group everyone into one basket. Genetics and stupid luck play a lot into our health.