I've had an "age crisis" since about your age lol, 46 now. Thinking about age, seeing the age related decline, thinking you are now an "old man all of a sudden." It's been and is hard to accept. I ask friends if aging freaks them out but they seem much better at accepting it lol.
Oh I get getting old is never easy. I grew up with my grandmother, I've seen it all. My mom's mom took aging very well(born 1928) my dad's mom took it horribly(born 1943). I talk to boomers and they are even worst etc.
Like just look at hair dye. An entire generation of women in their 50s no longer go gray. It fucks you up, because it makes you feel like no one is aging.
I think it's worth mentioning, genx in my opinion is objectively cooler than millenials, in the sense they've done cool shit, had interesting sex lives, and can talk in interesting ways. So unlike in the past the generation gap makes you think people 20 years your senior still think and act like young people.
My parents and my inlaws were born in 61, 62, 63 and 64. None of them have white hair, and they were pretty healthy until basically covid started and then they hit a brick wall. Everyone of them could easily still pass for 50. My father and mother in law even works out/runs twice a day. My parents just built a cottage with almost no outside help. But it's like they're about to jump from age 40 to age 70 in 5-10 years.
Regarding longevity and testosterone I read this piece the other day. You are not supposed to have high test when older and it ages you even faster. You're NOT supposed to have a sex drive like an 18 year old. If anything you should supplement with estrogen!
https://novoslabs.com/testosterone-replacement-therapy-and-anti-aging/
Guys, if you have the patience to read that I'd like your opinion.
I already know I'm unlikely to let go of the "high" testosterone, in my head it's like the life force itself!
Oh i get the testostorone bit, but that's sort of the point hormones dropping seems only natural. Like I'm prepared for that, I have old man hobbies, I have no desire to be out fucking models, partying etc.
It's the other shit that gets to me, knees, ankles, hibs, etc just crapping out and never rehabbing. bladder control issue, not being able to eat certain foods, not being able to sleep right, losing hearing, losing IQ points etc.
Like I'm overweight and 5 years ago I could carry being overweight just fine. I mean I knew I looked like shit, but I could move get around and get faster and stronger with exercise. Now it just seems like I just can snap back into shape.
