Man thats a heavy dose when you realise that you could have done something to help that girl or really anyone. You never know what someone is feeling or thinking...
I have some days when everything is grey and cold (mostly in the winter) lol
But being depressed is like when you are in a sauna and the heat is so unbearable that the only way out is opening the door and go in to the cold. The Door being death (suicide) and it seems to be the only relief there is- for the never ending suffering and the pain! That's exactly what it feels like, sometimes. To just make it go away and get out of hell.
Its a life of suffering and depression, its the worst thing that can happen to a human being...one of my friends never talked about suicide never, he talked about the suffering and hope..he burned himself in his car...what a horror his wife and children had to go through..
Ithink way more people are suffering from depression today then lats say 30 years ago