OK here`s the Readers Digest version of what`s going on with me.
I hate to bring it up,that`s why I seldom ever do...... cuz certain assholes always say I`m lying or it was self inflicted or other bullshit like I`m looking for sympathy etc. etc.
You guys know how this board is........I`m not blaming anyone else for me ever smoking.....I take full responsibility as I should.
Anyway, the thing is,these fuckers have me scheduled for another lung biopsy going through my chest from the outside this time on Nov. 22nd.......last time they went down my throat.......long story, but it showed that it was negative because the tumor had scarring or scabbing around it due to previous radiation treatment 3 years ago.
In the meantime they put my Pancreatic surgery on hold to find out which Cancer is more aggressive.
Just this past week I have been getting mild abdominal pain so this Tuesday due to the holiday on Monday I`m calling Syracuse and demanding that they operate on my Pancreas first.....it`s been far too long a wait.
Here`s the extensive operation I need.........some gummies or a few joints just ain`t gonna help me:
https://www.google.com/search?q=the+whipple+procedure&rlz=1CAPUVO_enUS1107&oq=the+whipple+procedure&gs_lcrp=EgZjaHJvbWUyCQgAEEUYORiABDIHCAEQABiABDIHCAIQABiABDIICAMQABgWGB4yCAgEEAAYFhgeMggIBRAAGBYYHjIICAYQABgWGB4yCAgHEAAYFhgeMggICBAAGBYYHjIICAkQABgWGB7SAQoxMDg5N2owajE1qAIIsAIB&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8I`m scared shitless as I have never had anything but stitches,but fuck it when the time comes I`m just gonna` go with the flow....I have no choice.
If it was a simple appendectomy for my first surgery I woudn`t give two fucks.......but I go big or stay home!

Also I am now a Diabetic since my Pancreas no longer produces insulin.
So let`s end this thread and start a new one if I croak.

I just keep telling myself that I`m not the only fucker that has been through this.....plus eating Diazapam like candy has helped my anxiety......I`m on the phone 10-20 times a day with doctors and other assholes who keep telling me they return my calls.
End of thread please......don`t want to sound like a fucking whiner....if I die,fuck it I had a good run.
Have a great weekend everyone and Ro,kick some ass brother,
Tim