Oh shit 38 is throwing down the gauntlet!!! 
I wonder what would happen is dozens of members emailed as many law schools as possible and simply told the truth??? 
And 38 - I am pretty sure my wife would fck Brian up in a bad way. 
See -  Brian - I am man enough to admit that someone like 38 might just beat me so bad I blow snot bubbles. But if he and I had beef we would settle it and even if he threatened my wife I would NEVER call the cops. She carries and is proficient as hell. 
But the thing is - I don’t even remotely know who he is, but I respect him. Just by the way he behaves on here I can see that he is a man that has probably made some mistakes but he MATURED and grew as a man. 
Again - don’t  know 38 and he could be a total dickhead in person but I can’t see that at all. 
The thing is that I have encountered guys similar to you in life and100% of them were terrified inside but lived in their imagination hoping to not feel like the weak little loser they are