Yeah that was this am at 191lbs I can't stop losing weight now. I am very ill look like skelator I actually think I looked great at 200-205. My system is very sensitive and it crashed hard went way too far. I was lean enough in my damn bulking mode at 225 and could have ing osteppoed on stage in my 215 condition and felt great I feel like death now fuck losing weight same mistake as last time should have trusted myself and stayed heavy vs getting all anorexic and trying to kill myself
There was a guardian angel on your shoulder. You could have died this weekend. Forget competing. You've had severe diarrhea, anemia, and dehydration to the point where you almost needed an iv. 3 of the top pros dying this year were mid 40. Walking around at 210 in good year round condition is victory enough. Ifbb pro Mike Francois had to retire due to Colitis and being in the bathroom all day. It's just impossible to be near your best when your body can't process food, and you're living in the bathroom. You gave it your all and should be proud, but it's time to hang up the thong.
