... but my belief that such a female exists continues to diminish.
I am 41 and was with a woman who, I thought, was my best friend, but she turned out to be just another royal turd with a lack of loyalty and conviction. It ended about two years ago and since that time I have found it difficult to even consider being in a relationship.
Even if I do find a girl whom I respect and come to trust, I do not think I will ever desire to marry ... or even live with her. All my peers are married and every one of them does nothing but bitch and complain.
I am not some super-duper catch with a Brad Pitt face and sexy six-pack, nor am I without annoying habits (is anybody?), but I am loyal, honest and affectionate. I have never been one to bang broads left, right and centre, and I have mostly been intimate with girlfriends. I am not a male tramp. I wanna bang every halfways decent chick I see, but it's not in my nature to "play the game". I find it sickening.
So what am I saying? Who knows. I am about to go do my deadlift session so perhaps I shouldn't be contemplating emotional matters at this time. But am I asking for a lot? A girl who is smart, trustworthy and true to her guy? If she has muscle and can put up with my heavy metal and horror movies, all the better, too.
Okay, time to yank some heavy shit off the floor.
Thanks for reading.
Your problem is that you are a beta male. "Affectionate" and "loyal" won't cut it. There is only one kind of gal that goes for beta males: those that couldn't get an alpha. That is, fatsos, grossos and dumbsos. Or average-looking women with little charm and personality who are also loyal and affectionate. If that is what you want, I recommend the following: go to places where women in their late twenties to early thirties congregate. That is, shopping malls, libraries, parks, etc. I mention women in their late twenties to early thirties because this is the age range that most women are desperate to get married and have kids. Most women in their early to mid twenties are still not interested in hitching up.
Now, if you want an alpha or a beta female, then you need to be an alpha male. The women I mentioned earlier are not even beta females, but delta females. Beta females are the beautiful ones with huge racks and ass that you want to fuck but lack any attributes besides physical beauty. They are dumb, spoiled, weak in terms of personality, etc. They are likely to cheat you due to their very high levels of hormones which makes them want to have as many kids as possible. Then, there is the alpha female: she is beautiful, more beautiful in fact than the dumb bimbo, but she has a delicate feminine figure without a huge ass and rack, and she also has other attributes like intelligence, inner strength, self-reliance, etc. She has it all. A good example of an alpha female is Emma Watson. If you want an alpha female to give your kids her superior genes, then you need to be an alpha male.
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