I'm still natural, 24 years old, and been training for nearly 4 years. I'm dying to do a cycle but I'd rather wait a few more years as I beleive I can still grow naturally.
I could imagine how shitty it must feel coming of a cycle. Which is what I really worry about sometimes when that time will come for me to juice.
Also, I think about what happens after that first cycle?
Would I become dependent on steroids forever and always be planning the next cycle?
I love bbing but I wonder if that would change once I juiced 
Bebe Borracho,
Once you crossover to the "Dark Side", everything changes.
You elevate your anabolic environment and you are in fact, enhanced.
Don't worry about coming off cycle, as long as you have researched and planned out your PCT the way you should, it won't be that big a deal.
Sure you'll lose some size and strength, but you will also have made permanent gains that you will keep as long as you keep training, "natural" or not.
After your first cycle you can make a choice as to whether you will want to keep cycling or stay clean. You will only become dependent on AAS if another area in your life is lacking and the Anabolics become your only sense of happiness and fullfillment.
So basically, keep your life in order and you should be straight.
Besides.......one cycle is nothing, you still have a long way to go in order to understand all the basics of AAS and how your body responds to them. It takes a few cycle to understand what works for you.
One last thing: Decadick is real, nothing you want to deal with. Make sure your Test:Deca ration is at least 3:2 and preferably 2:1.
DIV