Probably not the best place to ask this, but here goes. I'm looking to kick my use of AAS forever (if I can recover, if not go to TRT). Done a few cycles, but this one has been my longest one yet (about 9 months of B & C). I'm currently cruising on 250mg test but I really want to come off in the interest of health. For me it's not a physical addiction, but a psychological one. It's always the same pattern: cycle, look good, get worried about health, come off, miss looking jacked after a few months, hop back on. Does anyone with any experience with this have any advice? I'm still young (mid 20s) so hoping to get out before it consumes me. I know that if I cruise too long i'll be tempted to up the dose/throw in more compounds
Thats your problem, you need to learn to address that and be comfortable with who you are. On one hand i feel bad for you that you learned your lesson (using that loosely) the hard way, on the other hand part of me says fuck him, he decided to started hitting the juice so early on without reaching his natural limits first, as it was your shortcut. I believe until mid-late twenties you can still gain naturally, and after that you can start using hormones to supplement, but that also has to do with your goals. if your goal is to look jacked the fuck up for all your life, then of course you need the hormones at early age, but if your goal is to use hormones as a kick in the ass and a boost after putting in 10 years of natural work, then thats a different story.
Having said all of that, back to your question, you say "having done a few cycles, 9 months of B&C". If thats truly all youve done, you have nothing really to worry about. At your age, your body can do wonders and heal any fuckups. In the grand scheme of things, you really didnt abuse steroids, but you also dont say what dosages you were running.
From what i can tell, your body will be fine, however the problem was always your mind. Yoou need to learn to like the way you look. And trust me, if youre a serious lifter and have decent muscles, you'll get so much pussy. As a matter of fact, the big and lean guys get more pussy than the huge and shredded tools at the gym, so just learn to be comfortable in your own body. You're asking this on a steroids board, you'll get many different views. noone is right or wrong, just people have different opinions.