Jesus Christ Matt, nothing like living on the edge huh ? LOL 
LOL!!!
Tim - honestly, thank you for getting and beating lung cancer.
You were in shape all your life. That may have been the difference.
Your story kept me I fear, and kept me not smoking much.
I had one just now with a McDonald's meal and a coffee.
What I learned from your successful battle with lung cancer is that I don't want to have to go through that. I don't want to say "Damn, what did I do to myself?" Especially when I should have known better.
But IS two cigarettes a week, assuming I can sustain this [which as a disciplined person, I feel I can] going to hurt me?
Recently I decided that I'm not going to wait for gyms to reopen in Ontario to get back to hard workouts. What I WANT is to follow a proper heavy [for me] lifting schedule.
But I can't - so long walks and calisthenics will be the thing instead.
And for me to be worried about even ONE cigarette is normal for me. But my rational half keeps those worries in check.
So...is there ANY way to do this? I mean...John Meadows said 55 cigarettes in your lifetime can negatively impact your ejection fraction ratio! Like WTF! So I'm at risk for a heart attack smoking one cigarette a month?
I figure...as long as I am in control, it's fine.
That cigarette was surprisingly satisfying. I don't feel like having another one immediately...but THAT'S the issue for me.
So is there any "acceptable" number of cigarettes we can smoke?
Ultimately I'm conning myself. I just don't see a world where I have that perfect amount, without wanting another. I actually do still want to at least have ONE more.
I guess you got over that, because you quitting like you did is amazing.
But see...we had the same issue, sort of: both of us are disciplined people, long-time gym goers who followed a good diet. And clearly both of us enjoy cigarettes, plural.
Was there anything specifically that made you forget cigarettes, or would you say it was mostly a matter of time?
Your story was impressive - going from a tumor the size of a quarter to one UNDETECTABLE...that's insane.
And I am extremely confident you will not have a relapse of lung cancer, barring you going back to smoking. We will all get sick eventually...do I think you will be contending with another lung tumor...well...without seeing your entire medical protocol, and reading every study, my belief is NO. You did what you had to, and now it's just a matter of you not giving up.
Incidentally, one thing about autism is this: picture living in hyper-sensitivity. Like when you were scared because you had a tumor.
Even just reading your journey to recovery had me scared! In fact, maybe I need to bookmark your thread, and open it every time I'm thinking of having a cigarette.
My fear is that if I'm smoking at all, I will become a pack-a-day smoker - and THAT quantity of smoking scares me.
Obviously even smoking one a WEEK will dominate my thoughts, no matter how much I enjoy it. Really, I just need to bookmark your thread, read it any time I'm thinking of smoking, and just forget it.