Suicide wish? Prime, I'm sure there are local playhouses you can get involved with if you are this into dramatics.
People die...problem is not at a higher rate than normal. First "pandemic" where world population grew by many millions.
You are comparing apples and oranges. Many things are can be attributed to population growth including improvements in medical science and standard of living, i.e. food and shelter. Rather than look at population growth over the last 2 years, look at how many more people died than in the years prior to 2020. More importantly is that for the past 69 years preceding the onset of the pandemic the death rate consistently fell every year.
Each year from 1950 to 2019 the world death rate fell. In the past two years it has increased by 66 per 1,000 people or gone from 7,579 to 7,645 per 1,000 people. Today there are nearly 8 billion people in the world. This is not taking into account that the death rate was falling prior to the pandemic and likely would have continued to do so.
The world population in 2021 grew at a rate of 1.03%, in 2020 the rate was 1.05% per year, (down from 1.08% in 2019, 1.10% in 2018, and 1.12% in 2017).